Dear Me

I have been engaged since 9 January 2014 I almost got married in November 2011 I have not been married since I planned weddings a few times But they did not eventuate I am happy that I am not married Why, you ask? Because I still have my freedom I am not someone's wife I can make my own decisions  I can solely do things I can solely own things Walking away will not be a mess I can leave easily if I so choose  

  Sometimes I feel so frustrated Somedays I want full control Sometimes I don't want to carry all the burden Somedays I want people to know What's mine  Is mine 

 Love songs from the 70s, 80s, and 90s,  will never grow old Listening to them this afternoon  is helping me a lot Remembering the yester years  has been good for me Why I fell in love with you I can't believe what we've been through I know enough to know it's you I don't have to look far Until forever Cause it was meant to be It's forever you and me

Friday 1 July 2022 A day I never imagined I'd experience This day was yesterday Things happened so naturally Things happened so fast I was sucked in Sucked in very hard I wanted it so badly I was upset when it did not happen Today I hear bad news It's crazy, really crazy! I feel so unfulfilled I hate this feeling I want it to go away I don't know how to make it go away Things will not be the same until... I've completely rid this toxicity from my head I need this crap out of my body I created this blog to write about it I write because I need to get it out! Why can't this feeling just go away? Things will never be the same again For now,  I'm faking it till I make it.